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And now my computer refueses to play .wav files. When I try to play them, an error pops up that I don't have the ACM codec, even though I went out and installed it. Not to mention that the files worked fine until just a few days ago.

Wow

One time I was working at the blood drive at school, and I was talking to someone, I can't remember who, and I said I didn't really like people. They asked why on Earth I was in a service club if I didn't like people, and I replied that I liked helping people.

I've come to realize that I don't dislike people, it's that I just don't like socialy interacting people I don't know well. And yes, this includes online stuff too. I was terrified when I realized I had acciedntly posted somthing mst3k realted at the mst3k community here, and I still don't know if I'm going to post the Forrester/Frank LP I've finished at the fst community.

Or slightly more relevent to the point I'm trying to make, posting my first post at the (old) MST3K fanfiction boards, even though I was lurking there for months. But then Kate posted a message stating that she was looking for some MST3K slash fics, and since I had a list of MST3K fanfics even then, I posted the links.

In other words, I like helping people. And what I've wanted to do in life has, in a way reflected this. Only that now I want to persue somthing computer related, because right now I'm seeing my older goal of becoming an historical preservationist crumblue right along with my Pre-Calculus grade. So, computers.

Plus the fact that people consider that the present and future is more profitable, leaving the past in the garbage, which is one of the more of dangerous things humanity has ever done. Those who forget the mistakes and lessons and RESEARCH of the past are condemmed to repeat them, and all that jazz.

Moving ever closer the the actual point I was trying to make, I was looking at the fanfiction links I had, and I learned that the author a few of the WiPs I was reading, and found out that she was Red Cross volenter, and she was in Baton Rouge, LA working to set up and help run the Red Cross' computer network.

And then I realied that I could help a voulnter orginization, like the Red Cross, and not have to do mass care or try to comfort people. My skill at comforting people is basicaly attempting to get people slipping into shock into conversation so I can tell if they're getting worse, cracking jokes, and saying I'm sorry. The call for either of my specialities are limited, so I'm pretty much crap for comforting people and don't usually attempt to do so for fear of making the situation worse than it already is.

Just to re-iterate my point: what camwyn is doing is really cool, and I wish to provide a similar service someday.